Saturday, June 23, 2007

My boys were expelled from school and I'm taking drugs...

...but it's not really as bad as all that.

I'm now on an anti-depressant, and the boys are now seeing a therapist. The doctor is helping the whole family, which is great. The drugs are also helping the whole family, by really helping me, which is incredible.

Yep, I'm medicated. I admit, I feel a little bit of the inevitable, gosh-I-wish-had-done-this-ages-ago, but not too much. I know those thoughts are dangerous, for that way, guilt lies thick. What I am really feeling is simply more patient and less critical, with myself and with others. I would have never thought it possible. Those SSRI's really do the trick sometimes.

As for the boys' expulsion...I never really fit into the crowd at that snooty school anyway. I love the method of teaching, so we chose another school, about 15 minutes drive away, with the same philosophy. However, it's much less snooty, cheaper, and they know to look out for Baby B's terrible temper. I have high hopes for the combination of a new school, child therapy, mom-on-drugs and me not really working.

Yes, "me not really working" is what y'all just read. I am working on the sale of my business by the end of this month. I should clear a few grand, so no money will have been lost, and much peace will have been gained. As for work, I'm going to punch the clock part-time at the local mall for a few hundred a week. I've done it before, I like that kind of small ticket selling, so I don't anticipate too much stress. I hope to get a job by the end of the summer.

Thank you all for your advice and words of kindness left on the last post. Please stay tuned for more details!

As ever,

The Optimistic (I don't let the Turkeys get me down!) MOT